Do the Limbo

So I've actually started this message a couple of times over the last few weeks, but never finished it because I didn't really know what to say. It's tough because this summer has been kind of weird for me---at times I've been inspired, excited about the future, and confident that I was making progress, whereas at other times I've been bleak, demoralized, and unsure of whether I'll ever be able to get anywhere. A lot of the time I've just been trying to avoid thinking about my career by finding something else, anything else, to do.

Now having some emotional ups and downs is understandable when you're a big name artist and you have a number one single, a DUI conviction, a Grammy awards nomination, and a divorce all in the same week. But what's my problem? Is having a peaceful relaxing summer with no job and no responsibilities really too much to ask of a person? Well in my case yeah, pretty much.

See before I can move forward in my career, before I can do anything else, I need to finally get what I've lacked all along---a great studio album that really captures what I'm all about. Why is this so dang hard for me? I feel like it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. All of the highs and lows I've experienced this summer have been reactions to this difficult but potentially very rewarding process: the elation of thinking I found the right recording environment, the disappointment of finding out I was wrong, and the feeling of listlessness while I sit in limbo waiting to see if the next option works.

It's one of those deals where it's probably going to all work out great in the long run, but in the meantime there are just some long periods of waiting and uncertainty that I have to get through. Oh, well! I won't worry about it for the next couple weeks because Jodi and I going down to Texas to visit friends and family, which I love to do. And that's all the news for now, folks! Let me know how you all are doing out there, I'd love to hear from you...

Zane